never fight fire with fire

hey -

here’s a post on a sunday because i felt like it.

not every person in the world is going to root for you. people are going to attack you. pray on your downfall. make moves to destroy you.

it’s happened to me a couple of times.

i’ve had so many opportunities to clap back and really stand up for myself. stand up for myself in the sense that, i’m gonna fight fire with fire.

i realized that it’s not worth my effort. it’s not worth sacrificing my peace to get the last laugh.

there was a time where i avoided reading instagram comments because i didn’t want to stress over controversial comments.

i sometimes feel the need to comment, but i realize the internet is just a bottomless pit of idiots.

i mention this because i had to actively take steps to protect myself from these stimuli.

as much as i can hate and be angry. as much as i have the tools to give the perfect revenge, it’s not wise to lean into this malicious side.

wanting revenge makes me excited in the sense that they’ve done me wrong, so i’ll do them worse. but i realize that it’s gonna be a cycle of never-ending malice if i follow through.

i’ll stop the cycle at the root. for the sake of them, and, more importantly, me.

i’m hurt, but i don’t want to hurt others because that would lead to more pain.

i can’t waste my time going out of my way to hate and hurt others. that’s how you live miserably. that’s not who i am.

never live for someone else’s demise.

protect your peace.

see you then.

— Ethan