be present

hey -

lately, I’ve found myself failing to live in the moment.

parties, celebrations, gatherings.

i haven’t been able to fully enjoy what is around me because i’m in my head.

i tend to think about my mistakes, my faults, all these shortcomings that ultimately kill my mood.

my folks could be cutting my birthday cake in front of me and i’d be thinking,

‘i wish she was here with me right now to see this’

it sucks, but it happens.

when you get in your head about what was, you don’t allow yourself the space to reign in what is.

no amount of overthinking will change the past, nor the future.

just be here. be present in the moment.

smell the air. listen to people when they talk. feel your feet touch the floor

live in the present. let things flow. things will be alright.

with time, you’ll see it.

you’ve been happy before, who is to say it won’t happen again?

see you then.

• Ethan